Its already the 26th, and its a Monday. I'm not looking forward to the last day of the month, the 31st. I'm not looking forward to Saturday. I dont want to go through the whole cycle again, but I know there isnt any choice for it. I just have to go through it. Breaking down last night, and I thought to myself, wondering whats the reason. As I stared at those stars hanging on my ceiling, I finally knew the reason to the breakdown. I missed you. I dont want you to go back. I wished you could just enroll yourself into a school here, and dont have to go back . You came back in just short 3weeks, and you'll be gone for a long 4/5months. When will we ever meet again. You kept constantly telling me " Please dont cry at the airport" You know, its never easy to hold back those tears. No matter how hard I tried to hold back, it will , it will still roll down the cheeks. I've to learn to be strong all over again. I've to go through that process of getting used to you not physically here w me all over again. I've to go through the crying for nights all over again. I know, you'll be back. I know, but thats at the end of the year ;( I used to look forward to the end of each month. Not now, I'm so not looking forward to it.
I'm gonna miss all the bickerings again .
I'm gonna miss stabbing you .
I'm gonna miss hugging you .
I'm gonna miss lying next to you .
I'm gonna miss your kisses .
I'm gonna miss us going to places for food .
I'm gonna miss everything .
I survived 4 months without you physically here. &Now, I've to try to survive it again. Its not easy. Its never easy. I told myself earlier " This time I wont cry, cause I'm preparing for it " No, I'm deceiving myself. I wont be okay. I wont I know.
Bring me along, or stay, will you?
I'm hating 21st Feb, and 31st July.