You're the one that captures my heart.

♥ Monday, November 15, 2010

Prolly , its time to switch to tumblr.

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♥ Sunday, October 10, 2010

It's been a month, too many things happened. Been partying for the past few weekends though I already told myself to maintain.Well, at least I'm not those really hardcore who goes to club every Wednesday, Friday&Saturday. Partying on weekends help me to destress (Y) Partying's good, not getting myself wasted, and I'm glad that my intake of alcohol level increases already (: I understand the pain of taking care of someone when the person is drunk, its painful and tiring. Especially if you're taking care of a person who loves to run a lot. I feel the pain now, and I'll never let myself breakdown ever again. What doesnt kill me, makes me stronger. Its either partying, or chilling/drinking on every weekends, spells LOVE. I think I'm getting back on track in life. No point holding onto it. I deserve better. Dear October, please be kinder to me. I think I'm doing good so far, so just let things be the way they are now.

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9:28 PM

♥ Saturday, September 18, 2010

You're the one always bidding goodbye without thinking how badly the damage can caused to me.

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From this very day, you live your way, and I'll live mine. Prolly even earlier , you already live in your own life. There were many failed attempts of happiness in this period, but I know deep inside my heart, I never let you go. There isnt such thing as fairytale story, or fairytale ending. You choose to let go of us, I know. Cause I ain receiving texts from you, you ain calling me anymore. Thinking back this whole period us getting together was never an easy task. We fought, we bickered we quarreled. We know that after awhile things will be back to normal. We smiled together over little things, we cried together over stupid things. We laughed together over random things. The things we been through this period, I had to admit, it was too harsh for me. I wont deny that I am at fault, but thinking back, you did wrongs too. I tried my best to change , I tried to make things work, but I guess, it really takes two hands to clap. Reading back all the old posts, looking back at all our pictures. Good memories, bad memories we shared. Happy ones , sad ones. 31st Aug, you choose to let it go. Everything come to an end. Now, you can go hit on all the girls you want. You can go wink at all the girls you want. You can go flirt w all the girls you want. Talking about moving on, prolly the one who is moving on is you. Talking about rebound, prolly the one is you. I guess I gotta get used to life without you.

It's been 18days since you left. I know this time, you're leaving me for good, you'll never return to my side anymore. I thank the people around me for being such a big love. To even those I dont really talk to. Now, our friendship is a step closer. Many loves to Juliana&Pearlyn. The one who see me cry always. No matter what my decision is, they still stood by me, and support me. To those who've been great listening ear, listening to my grumbles and all. Daniel&John. I know, pretty much weird cause we used to be complete strangers, and now. We're like communicating almost everyday. Big hugs to those who accompanied me . When they tell me " I'm just a phone call away", they really do. Just a text/ call, they tried to make themselves available. To those who care and concern every now and then, big thankyou to you too. I shall not disturb your life anymore. I cant too since now you're doing the hard way by blocking me and all.

Pearlyn&Juliana.

Thankyou for being there to watch me cry. Despite your work and all, you'll always try to keep me company so I wont start thinking about him so much. Throughout this whole period, thankyou for standing by me. Though you dont wish to see me in pain, but still even though I dont want to give him up, you respect my decision, and supported me. Thankyou for those times watching me cry, coming over to keep me company, texting w me so I wont be feeling so alone and all. Despite all the issues the adults are facing, it did not affect the close bond we have. ♥

Daniel&John.

This is damn random I know. On just a random day, we just became so close, thankyou for being my listening ears. You all must have suffered from all my grumblings and all. All my daily rantings, thankyou for trying to add in positive thoughts and distract me from other stuffs.

Now, I guess you can call other girls baby, they can call you hubby. No doubt, I still miss you and all. No doubt I still love you. This is life, if you think being like this you'll be happier, than go ahead. I'm not going to cry about every night and all. Do know, I still have you in my heart.

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6:12 PM

♥ Sunday, August 22, 2010

I love you more than my life

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11:30 AM

♥ Monday, August 9, 2010

When someone talks to you almost everyday, it becomes a routine right? But then, when they stop talking to you out of nowhere…you get scared to even say anything because you feel like you will ruin something between the two of you. Can’t help but think, “what did i do wrong?”

That's what I'm feeling right now.

What did I do wrong.

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10:27 PM

♥ Saturday, August 7, 2010

Dont be afraid that you'll wake me up in the middle of the night with your sms when I'm sleeping. You know I wont mind♥

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11:45 PM

♥ Friday, August 6, 2010

"Marry me"

I do. I will. I love you.

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10:02 PM

♥ Monday, August 2, 2010

Day2 my Poopy is back in Aussie. Things are like way much better now. Back to the usual, we webcammed our night time away, and like, even skype w Poopy(:

Was over at Grandpa's to celebrate his 90th birthday. A lot of random people turned up, and us cousins sort of have a lil gathering. Some were trying to seduce young kids, and I even saw another of my nephew . Seeing another niece/nephew reminds me that I'm an auntie already. Spent my whole day at Grandpas. Came home after dinner, and was on cam w Poopy (: Ko'ed at 12 odd (:

Happier note ; Daddy approves of me&Bibi to go holiday (:
Cant wait, cant wait. Looking forward, Looking forward.

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9:08 PM

♥ Sunday, August 1, 2010

Its been a day since you're back in Perth, and time seemed to pass so slowly without you here. Constantly checking on my phone, hoping for your name to appear on my screen. When I wake up. When I'm having breaks. When I wake up in the middle of the night. Before I sleep, I always wished I could receive your texts like the past. Knowing that you'll be thinking of me all day & all night. Having people to ask me "hey, where's your boyfriend? Why never come?" Sucks pretty much, cause it makes me go and think about it. If you're right here, I'll bring you here, I'll show you to the world that I'm proud and glad that you're my boyfriend. I'm happy to have you by my side. Its back to days seeing you on webcam everyday. My lil niece the hamster face, when I saw her today. She asked me " Where's your boyfriend " Its back to reality. I gotta survive another 4/5 months with you in Perth. I miss you so bad, so much that I dont know what to do. Time ticks a lot slower, without you here. I want you, smiling for me. Always.

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7:41 PM

♥ Saturday, July 31, 2010

Dear You,

Its been 7hours since you're out of my sight. From the moment at the airport, I told myself not to cry cause you wont want to see me in tears. From the moment I met up w you, It gets harder to hold those tears back. Asking you those questions isn' mushy, isn't gay or what. You know that's what girls are. They like to ask such stuffs. As we walked nearer to the Immigration area, I didn't want to let you go. I just want to hug you and hold you back. I know I cant hold you back. You've got your school. You've to go back. As I watch you walking in, tears just rolled down immediately. I couldn't bear to let you go. The last hug. The last kiss. When will I be able to feel that hug, that kiss from you again. I stared at my phone, looking at our picture. I know you'll be back. I hope I'm the reason you're coming back. I tried to be strong, I tried to learn to be tougher, but it obviously fail. So used to having you here with me for this short while, and now, you're back in Perth again. 7 hours, it felt as if its damn long.

I miss everything about you. I miss hugging you. I miss kissing you. I miss us holding hands. I miss us watching movies. I miss being in your arms. I miss teasing you. I miss us quarreling. I miss us being happy. I miss lying next to you. I miss having you in my arms. I miss going out with you.

I know we'll still webcam, but things are different. It will be feeling different already. At least I'm glad I watch you walking in, rather than the last time, I didn't even get to. Your last few smses to me, asking me to eat well, and concentrate. I'm trying to eat, but it seemed like ever since you went back the very first time, I've been losing my appetite since then. Maybe this time is even worst than the last time. The morning's gone. Now its the noon. I want to hear your voice baby. I wonder when will I be able to be lying next to you again.

You know I'll never love you any less despite the way you treat me is differently from the past. I'll not give up in whatever I do, including this love. Why does this feel as if its the first time you're leaving my side? I been through it before. I was still fine when I came home. As the clock ticks, I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I missed you this bad baby. You know I would still love to receive your letter though you never really like writing but you still wrote to me the past few months? I won't want to walk the path we walked together before. I want you to walk with me. We walked from interchange to my home.

You know how much I love you, and how much I miss you.

Love,

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2:11 PM